I have a necessity from one moment to the next, and that is what drives me to practice. True, I learned to practice believing it could help me sit up straight and pay attention. I was wrong about that. I thought maybe if I found what was really necessary to my life, then I could get on from there. I didn’t realize that there isn’t an “on” from there.
I hear you about coming in with goals and going out with goals and something happens in the middle, yet my fascination is with waking up or falling asleep to the sense of location I feel with the movement of breath. When the breath stops, the necessity is there, and I wake up or fall asleep right where I am feeling what I feel as the breath makes itself known.