On the full lotus, from “Tao Bums”

I’m not well-educated in Taoist lore and practice. .

I have taught myself to sit in the lotus. I sit 40 minutes in the morning, and maybe 20 at night. My understanding would be that the two autonomic respirations, pulmonary and cranial-sacral, use the sense of place in the occurrence of consciousness to effect reciprocal innervation in the fascia and muscles of posture. This just means that the stretch in the fascia on one side of the body generates nerve-impulses to contract muscles to relieve the stretch, which causes stretch in the fascia on the opposite side; so there’s a back and forth of muscle activity that’s not generated from the cerebral cortex, it’s coming out of the reciprocal stretch of fascia and ligaments. The two respirations can place the occurrence of consciousness to effect activity out of balance, and that activity creates an alignment of the spine that opens feeling in real time.

That’s my practice when I think of it. Lately I’m focused on the hypnogogic state in sitting, the place where feeling becomes continuous even in the face of involuntary muscular activity and stretch that always borders on painful in three directions. I had to learn to feel three pivots at the sacrum, I have to learn to feel the reciprocity between the extensors on two sides behind and the psoas on two sides in front around the tan-t’ien. Here’s a great thing from Shunryu Suzuki someone posted on Warner’s Hardcore Zen blog, about “have to learn”‘s:

“That is the most important thing for me: to stand on my feet and to sit on my black cushion. I don’t trust anything but [laughs] my feet or my black cushion. This is my friend, always. My feet is always my friend. When I am in bed, my bed is my friend. There is no Buddha, or no Buddhism, or no zazen. If, you know, you ask me, “What is zazen?” you know, my answer will be, “To sit on black cushion is zazen,” or “To walk with my feet is my zazen.” To stay at this moment on this place is my zazen. There is no other zazen.”

That’s from Chadwick’s shunryusuzuki.com site, the lecture of July 6th 1970.

Here’s the way I feel it, on a good day- ha ha!-

“Simply by being where we are, we can come to forget the self. The sense of place engenders an ability to feel, and each thing we feel enters into the sense of place- even before we know it. This being where we are with each thing, even before we know it, is shikantaza.”

Can’t sit two hours in the lotus, and mostly I don’t know that I ever will, but this transmission is consciousness from sense organ and sense object, impact, and feeling as it really is, and it’s right where my mind as in heart-mind is now.

Shunryu Suzuki, “Don’t Spend Your Time in Vain”

“I don’t know why, you know, I am [laughs] in Tassajara [laughs]. Not for you or for myself, or not even for Buddha or for Buddhism. I am just here laughs . I cannot- You know, I don’t feel so good if-even when I think I have to leave Tassajara in two-three weeks, I don’t feel so good. I don’t know why [laughs]. I don’t think that is just because you are my students. I don’t think so. I do not have any particular person whom I love so much [laughs]. I don’t know why I have to be there. I have not much attachment to Tassajara. It is not because of I attach to Tassajara.

Hmm. Anyway, I am not seek [partial word]-I am not, you know, expecting anything in future or in term of monastery or Buddhism. But I don’t want to, you know, live-I don’t want to live in the air. I want to be right here. I want to stand on my feet, you know. The only way to stand on my feet is when I am Tassajara I should be at Tassajara [laughs]. That is the reason why, you know, I am here. I want to be here. That is the most important thing for me: to stand on my feet and to sit on my black cushion. I don’t trust anything but [laughs] my feet or my black cushion. This is my friend, always. My feet is always my friend. When I am in bed, my bed is my friend. There is no Buddha, or no Buddhism, or no zazen. If, you know, you ask me, “What is zazen?” you know, my answer will be, “To sit on black cushion is zazen,” or “To walk with my feet is my zazen.” To stay at this moment on this place is my zazen. There is no other zazen.

When I am really standing on my feet I am, you know, not lost. So, for me, that is, you know, nirvana, for me. So there is no need to travel, to cross, you know, mountain or river, for me. I am right here on the dharma world. So I have no difficulty to cross mountain and river. That is how, you know, we do not waste our time. Moment after moment we should live on this moment, right here, without sacrificing this moment for the future.”

 

(Excerpt from David Chadwick’s “Suzuki Roshi Transcripts”, July 6th, 1970)

How continuity enters practice- (a letter to a friend, rethought)

I’m thinking about how continuity enters practice, continuity being really a state of trance or a stream of thought. Question to me is, how does the witness of my attraction to thought enter into my sense of place?- without my intervention, I remind myself. The feeling that attracts me is not mine, the edge of thoughts is not mine, action out of place is not done. Meditation on impermanence, detachment from feeling, cessation, relinquishment- I certainly feel when I’m thinking, waking or falling asleep, and I’m mightily attracted to that ability to feel.