Does Practice Deepen In Retreat? (Comment on Brad Warner’s Blog)

Zen is about hypnogogic states, and these states are a part of everyday life that nobody recognizes. A stream of thought, a concentrated effort, falling asleep: hypnogogia reigns. The question is how these states are entered as a matter of course, and my answer is that they are entered out of necessity in the movement of breath, as the sense of place and the ability to feel respond.

In the cross-legged posture we put ourselves in a position where the sense of location and the ability to feel must respond to the necessity of breath (sooner or later). In fact, the sense of location and the ability to feel engendered through the necessity of breath can get up and walk around. Once that happens, who will sit back down to zazen? Who will walk out the door at the end of the retreat? And if the necessity is falling asleep, why would anyone drink a red bull to deepen an ease of posture in the cross-legged position when their necessity is otherwise, or pursue anything other than where they are right now and what they feel in the movement of breath?

“Good morning, where am I”- Sasaki at Cobb mountain last spring.

The Necessity Is There

I have a necessity from one moment to the next, and that is what drives me to practice. True, I learned to practice believing it could help me sit up straight and pay attention. I was wrong about that. I thought maybe if I found what was really necessary to my life, then I could get on from there. I didn’t realize that there isn’t an “on” from there.

I hear you about coming in with goals and going out with goals and something happens in the middle, yet my fascination is with waking up or falling asleep to the sense of location I feel with the movement of breath. When the breath stops, the necessity is there, and I wake up or fall asleep right where I am feeling what I feel as the breath makes itself known.

Proprioception, From Latin Proprius, Meaning “One’s Own”, “Individual”

I am exploring how the hypnogogic states depend on the necessity of breath, how consciousness takes place spontaneously and the ability to feel opened through the place of occurrence of consciousness becomes the ability to feel the long and short of breath.

I’m talking about proprioception and the sense of location in space, and how that opens feeling that begins to reveal the necessity in the length of breath. I am cut off from feeling my own necessity until I can relax and let go; Cheng Man-Ching the Tai-Chi master taught total relaxation followed by relaxing the chest as the way to start. The state like waking up and falling asleep doesn’t depend on what I do, it depends on letting go of mind and body. I do see that a mind in the chest opens feeling in the lower abdomen and lower back, a mind in the lower abdomen and lower back opens feeling in the legs and feet, a mind in the legs and feet opens feeling in the sacrum and spine, a mind in the sacrum and spine opens feeling in the arms and head, and a mind in the arms and head opens feeling at the surface of the skin. Something like that, successive assimilation of proprioception through feeling connected with the sense of location, as a matter of necessity in the particular movement of breath.

As Gautama the Buddha put it in a description of the first meditative state:

… as a skilled bath-attendant or (bath-attendant) apprentice, having sprinkled bath-powder into a bronze vessel, might knead it while repeatedly sprinkling it with water until the ball of lather had taken up moisture, was drenched with moisture, suffused with moisture inside and out but without any oozing. Even so does (a person) saturate, permeate, suffuse this very body with the rapture and joy that are born of aloofness; there is no part of (the) whole body that is not suffused with the rapture and joy born of aloofness.

(MN III 92-93, Pali Text Society pg 132-134)